with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

i dont understand magnetisation

its good

division of reality is straying away from it

its performative

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Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.


ahnaf is it worth reading all those books


Lift Analysis

December 2025

It Will Get Lighter

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

was it worth it

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.


mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

we can only engage in such a way

is this you as well

ahnaf abrar

It Will Get Lighter

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful