Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

which magnetises chains of pins

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

have you read

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

yeah

i was tempted to lie about my name

ahnaf abrar

propensity within someone

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

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isaac newton

It Will Get Lighter

i dont understand magnetisation

like magnets

but really the thing should be autonomous

December 2025

we need to be deconstructing our identities

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

so at the end

We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason