I'm getting bored and he can tell, so he shifts the topic towards me. He tells me he'd spotted me chatting to a girl earlier, a black girl, and asks what I thought of her, if I liked her. I mimed affirmatively.
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
somewhere between instagram and chatgpt
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
all that is to say
the textwall is as much for me as it is for you
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
as in
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
currently
no longer writing in the third person
division of reality is straying away from it
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given
it is hopeful
i am quite illiterate on producing technology
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
autonomy of learning
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.so the method has to be autonomous
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
I am below everything.