but really the thing should be autonomous

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

currently

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

Today I felt like starting

it is hopeful

i love it here

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

propensity within someone

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

what do you mean

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

i was tempted to lie about my name

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

sorry i am texting like a slav

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

no longer writing in the third person

feel you

no i haven't really read anything

its performative