division of reality is straying away from it

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

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i have read not even 1 book

abrar?

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

kind of mythopoesis

in a post. I want to be remembered

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

we need to be deconstructing our identities

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time

feel you

I am below everything.

ahnaf abrar

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

magnetisation/form

your feed looks like my tumblr

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

like first name

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

its performative

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

brb i will read and reply sincerely

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books