no longer writing in the third person
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
One of the birds shoots out of the tree.
a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.
I created this site
.Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
Better Lift
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
Windrush Art Kid Oligarch
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
I am below everything.
Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
It's
in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox."No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
its performative
not their contents
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
autonomy of learning
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
propensity within someone
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.