abrar?
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
brb i will read and reply sincerely
Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
as in
Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
bro i read nothing in my life
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
you have a beautiful account btw
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class
wait what is that
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
...
hiding from the rain