i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

so an active mazelike process

as in

all that is to say

division of reality is straying away from it

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

propensity within someone

you cannot feed someone truth

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

not their contents

its performative

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.


They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

magnetisation/form



i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Rain, starting

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

Style

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.