Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
Today I felt like starting
wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
Lift Analysis
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
the textwall is as much for me as it is for you
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
I'm getting bored and he can tell, so he shifts the topic towards me. He tells me he'd spotted me chatting to a girl earlier, a black girl, and asks what I thought of her, if I liked her. I mimed affirmatively.
Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
Another Frenchman pushes through the crowd to join him. He's an events organiser who I'd met earlier, and he's holding a large box wrapped in a bin bag. They're the fireworks he'd smuggled in from France the night before. They're Industrial Grade, whatever that means for fireworks.
We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river. I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the dim silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank. They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
you know who you are. no more time, not like
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. way too specific.Thank you, Jack, for telling me I'm just as bad as the characters (actually they're people, if that means anything to you) that I'm writing about.
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
The only real Londoner remaining is old, bitter, kept around for entertainment, defined by tropes from 30+ years ago. They play gangsters in films, or they work in a pie and mash shop, or they go on Business Insider's YouTube channel to tell you about their crimes. And they somehow still find the time to spend all day hanging about cafes and pubs for you to bump into, to remind you of Real London.