December 2025

was it worth it

division of reality is straying away from it

i have read not even 1 book

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

much more tactility

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

so an active mazelike process

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

we can only engage in such a way

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

so the method has to be autonomous

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

you cannot feed someone truth

not their contents

propensity within someone

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

Slug

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

lol yea