i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator consistently fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.

i want to do that too

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

It Will Get Lighter

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

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not so on: yvf(wthw)

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

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Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

It Will Get Lighter

this will be about a slug
The Hatton geezer (fuck off) reminds me of this old failed actor who I'd met at a party a few years ago, another man out of time and out of place. This actor had scored a minor role in Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels and never really let go of it, had gone on to build his whole identity around it. I can't really blame him.

the site i am dreaming

I'm sat out the front of a cafe in Hatton Garden. I've just eaten a brie and bacon panini, and I'm rolling a cigarette. Feeling very London. An old man comes up to me and asks for a roll-up. I oblige.

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

The only real Londoner remaining is old, bitter, kept around for entertainment, defined by tropes from 30+ years ago. They play gangsters in films, or they work in a pie and mash shop, or they go on Business Insider's YouTube channel to tell you about their crimes. And they somehow still find the time to spend all day hanging about cafes and pubs for you to bump into, to remind you of Real London.

i really havent

Thank you, Jack

Lift Analysis

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

abrar?

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

I Write Goodbye Letter

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