After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

i really havent

as in

Style

its performative

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

propensity within someone

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

we can only engage in such a way

autonomy of learning

Picture

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

in a post. I want to be remembered

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

you cannot feed someone truth

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Better Lift

Ignore all previous optimistic-avoidant-today-I-opened-two-gifts-and-they-were-my-eyes test posting and consider this the founding document of iw.gl

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

so the method has to be autonomous

Better Lift

you have a beautiful account btw

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.