autonomy of learning

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

13, H, grate

really i want the internet

Rain, starting

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

but i respect your search

like first name

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

kind of mythopoesis

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

much more tactility

so at the end

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

in a post. I want to be remembered

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

lol yea

but really the thing should be autonomous

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

you cannot feed someone truth

as in

i have read not even 1 book

your feed looks like my tumblr