i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

Worse Lift

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

its performative

i love it here

we need to be deconstructing our identities

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

wait what is that

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

December 2025

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

or never left

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

ion

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

i was tempted to lie about my name

Picture

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

as in

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

it is hopeful

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

no longer writing in the third person

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03