okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

lol yea

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

we can only engage in such a way

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

you cannot feed someone truth

not their contents

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

autonomy of learning

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

its performative

Better Lift

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Lift Analysis

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

and the fake qualifier

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

"Put a blanket."

...

division of reality is straying away from it

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

It Will Get Lighter