it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.

The only real Londoner remaining is old, bitter, kept around for entertainment, defined by tropes from 30+ years ago. They play gangsters in films, or they work in a pie and mash shop, or they go on Business Insider's YouTube channel to tell you about their crimes. And they somehow still find the time to spend all day hanging about cafes and pubs for you to bump into, to remind you of Real London.

part of an old note. It will get lighter.
and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

Pimlico Rats

idk

barren land

that looks like my instagram account

The Hatton geezer (fuck off) is emptying his pockets, searching for the silver rizlas he apparently has. He refuses to take one of mine (also silver) because the tobacco I'm giving him is already too much to ask. He tells me about the guy who can do 50g of Golden Virginia for a good price, the guy who every other man over 50 knows. I'm not interested.

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

Thank you, Jack, for telling me I'm just as bad as the characters (actually they're people, if that means anything to you) that I'm writing about.

or never left

we need to be deconstructing our identities

As we're stood there I notice a middle-aged woman staring at us across the room. I'm trying to catch her gaze, but its kind of vacant. I guess she sees me looking and considers it to be an invitation. She floats over to us in this strange dazed way, and on the approach I realise she's staring at (through?) my Korean colleague / fresh meat. She's saying wow, wow, wow. She seems genuinely so delighted, so shocked, so elated.

i dont understand magnetisation

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

feel you

no like which do people call me

what do you think my name is

no i haven't really read anything

what do you mean

like first name

its good

Can I see

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

whats your name?