It's loud and he's gone deaf in one ear, so I don't think he's really hearing
anything I'm trying to say. We're both pretty drunk too. It's making for a
kind of surreal interactive Business Insider YouTube video of a conversation.
He talks, waits for my response, sees my mouth moving but doesn't hear my
words, then he imagines something in their place, and replies to that. At
least I don't really have to do anything but drink and mime and listen to a
lot of bullshit fake gangster talk, being an actor, boxing, the old days, blah
blah blah.
It Will Get Lighter
is everyoneback on tumblr now
in a post. I want to be remembered
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no i haven't really read anything
It Will Get Lighter
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about...
whatever
it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with
it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.
Rain, starting
a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.
I created this site
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
Today I felt like starting
The Hatton geezer (fuck off) reminds me of this old failed actor who I'd met
at a party a few years ago, another man out of time and out of place. This
actor had scored a minor role in
Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels and never really let go of it, had
gone on to build his whole identity around it. I can't really blame him.
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