the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
so an active mazelike process
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
Windrush Art Kid Oligarch
currently
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
it is hopeful
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
It's
dusk
in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.i understand
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
i am quite illiterate on producing technology
i want to do that too
no i haven't really read anything
so the method has to be autonomous
i was tempted to lie about my name