we need to be deconstructing our identities

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Rain, starting

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

send link

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

was it worth it

Lift Analysis

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

i really havent

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

autonomy of learning

so at the end

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

Today I felt like starting

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.