no longer writing in the third person
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
what do you mean
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
yes
Today I felt like starting
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
I am below everything.
One of the birds shoots out of the tree.
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
Thank you, Jack
Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17