part of an old note. It will get lighter.

wait what is that

Slug

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

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December 2025

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

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was it worth it

no like which do people call me

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

i really havent

we can only engage in such a way

idk

bro i read nothing in my life

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

i have read not even 1 book

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

yeah

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

magnetisation/form

as in

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

in a post. I want to be remembered

division of reality is straying away from it

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.