Worse Lift
Rain, starting
The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed
she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here
in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or
baffled, or it isn't an argument
I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left
with a pathetic "In a bit."
It Will Get Lighter
god being the centre magnet
I'm sat out the front of a cafe in Hatton Garden. I've just eaten a brie and
bacon panini, and I'm rolling a cigarette. Feeling very London. An old man
comes up to me and asks for a roll-up. I oblige.
I Write Goodbye Letter
Pimlico Rats
no i haven't really read anything
Lift Analysis
Actual born-Londoners aren't LARPing like this, they sold their shite family
home for a million pounds and moved to Malaga years ago. They have their
culture and they've taken it elsewhere.
Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate,
but I can't
really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
,
I
have nothing
to do, I'm
watching them, trying to figure it out.
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing,
etc.
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Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
but really the thing should be autonomous
i have read not even 1 book
2 (actually index). two is company
