We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river. I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the dim silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank. They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.
propensity within someone
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."
its performative
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
but i respect your search
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
plato
its good
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
bro i read nothing in my life
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
and the fake qualifier
ahnaf abrar
i have read not even 1 book
i want to do that too
whats your name?
so at the end
not their contents
its good short few pages
we need to be deconstructing our identities
i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it
i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08