There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."

you have a beautiful account btw

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

you cannot feed someone truth

division of reality is straying away from it

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

.

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

which magnetises chains of pins

lol

that looks like my instagram account

your feed looks like my tumblr

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

its good short few pages

its performative

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

isaac

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

Thank you, Jack

what do you think my name is

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse