It Will Get Lighter

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

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There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Lift Analysis


i understand

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

its performative

autonomy of learning

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

It Will Get Lighter

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

"Put a blanket."
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

i was tempted to lie about my name

we need to be deconstructing our identities

It Will Get Lighter

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

is this you as well

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

yeah

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

currently