Today I felt like starting
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.
I am below everything.
i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine
that looks like my instagram account
was it worth it
send your tumblr
is everyoneback on tumblr now
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
autonomy of learning
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
i was tempted to lie about my name
not their contents
yeah
ahnaf abrar
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
is this you as well
lol yea
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
I imagine that some lab-grown 29-year-old from Woking with a mind honed to identify individuals who fit the profile of Real Londoner (as conceived of by 50 opinion-polled racist builders and their wives in the Midlands) picks a stubborn local who can still somehow afford to live here and passes him along to some creative studio.
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
you know who you are. no more time, not like
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