a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

abrar?

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Rain, starting

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.


"Put a blanket."

and the fake qualifier

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

i want to do that too

all that is to say

yeah

idk

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf


i really havent

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

autonomy of learning

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

i have read not even 1 book

It Will Get Lighter

feel you

yeah