bro i read nothing in my life

feel you

no i haven't really read anything

its good

was it worth it

like magnets

hello reader,

i really havent

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

abrar?

is this you as well

i really havent

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

really i want the internet

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

so the method has to be autonomous

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

It Will Get Lighter

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

yeah

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

propensity within someone

the site i am dreaming

so an active mazelike process

as in

its performative

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

which magnetises chains of pins

we can only engage in such a way

god being the centre magnet

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

December 2025

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

magnetisation/form

i want to do that too

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them