okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

I'm getting bored and he can tell, so he shifts the topic towards me. He tells me he'd spotted me chatting to a girl earlier, a black girl, and asks what I thought of her, if I liked her. I mimed affirmatively.

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

abrar?

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

and the fake qualifier

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

It Will Get Lighter

no like which do people call me

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

bro i read nothing in my life

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

we can only engage in such a way

which magnetises chains of pins

Today I felt like starting