1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

its good

its performative

division of reality is straying away from it

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

what do you mean

you cannot feed someone truth

It Will Get Lighter

sorry i am texting like a slav

you know who you are. no more time, not like

1

. way too specific.

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

the site i am dreaming

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

we need to be deconstructing our identities

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

I Write Goodbye Letter

...

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging
part of an old note. It will get lighter.

Slug

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

magnetisation/form

was it worth it

propensity within someone

have you read

...

as in

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.