no longer writing in the third person

Better Lift

I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

It Will Get Lighter

  1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

He went in there with a camera to film it before he moved out of the building. He didn't think anyone would believe the story if he didn't have proof.

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

i really havent

and the fake qualifier

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

you cannot feed someone truth

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression