Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

what do you think my name is

much more tactility

your feed looks like my tumblr

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

like first name

i was tempted to lie about my name

i love it here

its good

propensity within someone

ahnaf abrar

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

magnetises a pin

you cannot feed someone truth

its performative

as in

no longer writing in the third person

no like which do people call me

1

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

abrar?

division of reality is straying away from it

was it worth it

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue