the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

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I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

I am below everything.

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

i want to do that too

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

as in

which magnetises chains of pins

13, H, grate

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

yes

its good

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

not their contents

i understand

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

magnetisation/form

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

isaac

and the fake qualifier

Style