Another Frenchman pushes through the crowd to join him. He's an events organiser who I'd met earlier, and he's holding a large box wrapped in a bin bag. They're the fireworks he'd smuggled in from France the night before. They're Industrial Grade, whatever that means for fireworks.

But seriously, thank you, Jack, for telling me that I could submit this to a high-level literary magazine or creative nonfiction outlet with some minor tweaks. I don't think I will do that.


Pimlico Rats



okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river. I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the dim silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank. They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

its good

god being the centre magnet

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

i understand


somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

Thank you, Jack, for telling me I'm just as bad as the characters (actually they're people, if that means anything to you) that I'm writing about.

as in

really i want the internet

plato

much more tactility

After I get away from the old racist failed actor, I go to see my Korean colleague. He's just arrived in London and I want to see how he's handling the party. We'd been invited as fresh meat for some of the older, gayer attendees. We aren't aware of that.

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

you cannot feed someone truth

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

its performative

barren land

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me