it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit
because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
this will be about a slug
We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty
cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river. I've found the girl, or
she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the dim
silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.
They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks
for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
that looks like my instagram account
i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge
management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things
no like which do people call me
i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some
insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine
we need to be deconstructing our identities
Lift Analysis
your feed looks like my tumblr
it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
Slug
i was tempted to lie about my name
the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully
and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book
i dont understand magnetisation
but i respect your search
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
