the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Better Lift

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

Worse Lift

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

yeah

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

barren land

so the method has to be autonomous

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

"Put a blanket."

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

It Will Get Lighter

autonomy of learning

He went in there with a camera to film it before he moved out of the building. He didn't think anyone would believe the story if he didn't have proof.

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Thank you, Jack

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models