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the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

It Will Get Lighter

you have a beautiful account btw

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

like first name

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

feel you

i really havent

no like which do people call me

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

this will be about a slug

Can I see

December 2025

"Put a blanket."

i was tempted to lie about my name

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

abrar?

what do you mean

that looks like my instagram account

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

i really havent

your feed looks like my tumblr