Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

we can only engage in such a way

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

sorry i am texting like a slav

plato

much more tactility

its good

ion

barren land

what do you mean

have you read

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

magnetisation/form

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

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no longer writing in the third person

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

was it worth it

autonomy of learning


was it worth it