okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

Better Lift

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

autonomy of learning

division of reality is straying away from it

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

so the method has to be autonomous

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

propensity within someone

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

It Will Get Lighter

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

It Will Get Lighter

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

Her English is poor but she manages a brief introduction before getting to the point. She asks if she can touch his face. She's already reaching out and gesturing at it. Koreans are way too polite, he's just laughing awkwardly. I put my hand kind of between them and wave it to try and indicate no to her. I'm still in fucking mime mode. I say no, but it's not really to her, or to him, just no, in general. This is all too weird. Dejected, she departs with a comment about having never seen someone like him before.

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me