Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

no longer writing in the third person

1

is everyoneback on tumblr now

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

i understand

so the method has to be autonomous

ahnaf abrar

we can only engage in such a way

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

all that is to say

division of reality is straying away from it

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

what do you mean

bro i read nothing in my life

no like which do people call me

abrar?

magnetises a pin

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

is this you as well

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

you cannot feed someone truth

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.