I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.


the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Today I felt like starting

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.


Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

hiding from the rain

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

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Thank you, Jack

yes

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

all that is to say

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

not their contents

plato