It Will Get Lighter

Today I felt like starting

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

i really havent

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yeah

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

"Put a blanket."

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

all that is to say

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

plato

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

is this you as well

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

and the fake qualifier

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

i was tempted to lie about my name

like first name

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

magnetises a pin

much more tactility

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

feel you

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