I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

the site i am dreaming

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

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It's

dusk

in a post. I want to be remembered

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

hiding from the rain

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

really i want the internet

it is hopeful

no longer writing in the third person