i was tempted to lie about my name
Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen.
I go inside.
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
One of the birds shoots out of the tree.
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more
personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more
romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
Picture
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression
what do you think my name is
Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped
or constrained in real life, either
by social expectations, relationships, or internal
emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment. Unexpected
confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged
desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy. Forest and
snow – The transition to a
snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity,
stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of
cunning, intuition,
and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot
be expressed. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and
impulsively.
how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the
excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
bro i read nothing in my life
Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But
like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it
recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare
seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.
