much more tactility

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Ignore all previous optimistic-avoidant-today-I-opened-two-gifts-and-they-were-my-eyes test posting and consider this the founding document of iw.gl

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

hiding from the rain

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

its performative

lol yea

no longer writing in the third person

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

as in

we need to be deconstructing our identities

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

i love it here

what do you think my name is

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

magnetisation/form

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

so the method has to be autonomous

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

plato

that looks like my instagram account

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

propensity within someone

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.