Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Thank you, Jack

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

feel you

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

not their contents

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

so the method has to be autonomous

so an active mazelike process

isaac

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

thank you

propensity within someone

as in

i understand

December 2025

what do you mean

I Write Goodbye Letter

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i dont understand magnetisation

no i haven't really read anything

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

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all that is to say

isaac newton

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a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it