it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

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in a post. I want to be remembered

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

idk

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

so an active mazelike process

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.