i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

division of reality is straying away from it

is this you as well

i dont understand magnetisation

sorry i am texting like a slav

we need to be deconstructing our identities

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

i love it here

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

all that is to say

December 2025

its good

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

like first name

abrar?

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

the site i am dreaming

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

send link

as in

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.