the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
sorry i am texting like a slav
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
but really the thing should be autonomous
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
Windrush Art Kid Oligarch
kind of mythopoesis
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
as in
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue
i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me
i am quite illiterate on producing technology
it is hopeful
a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext