the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

it is hopeful


I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.


Style

Rain, starting

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

IWGD

like first name

isaac

no longer writing in the third person

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

yeah

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

lol

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

plato

that looks like my instagram account

which magnetises chains of pins

barren land

we need to be deconstructing our identities


we want to live the knowledge too live the content

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression